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Post by Elie De Beaufour on Oct 17, 2020 12:42:24 GMT -5
21694. Dean Hoffman, take a bow. Wow.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 20, 2020 9:13:43 GMT -5
21695. Continuing my previous message... I found the situation quite rare coz I don't usually get people's numbers just so randomly. But what now makes this even more interesting is that she told me she likes PJ Harvey, Joy Division and the Smiths, and some psych rock too! And then started asking me for more band recs. I mean, I got a little excited before even knowing anything about her other than that she seemed nice and looked beautiful. But she also seems to listen to similar music! This just appeared out of nowhere and I have this weird feeling that something is building up. And she did the initiate to stay in contact in a place where I would've walked away thinking it was just an encounter that passed me forever. Did she really see something in me that she didn't want to miss? I remember my first reaction to her was "wow she's pretty, almost like I view 'perfect' in my head", and I already thought it was something that I shouldn't expect to happen often. I had a funny feeling about the encounter afterwards. When we talked about these bands last night I felt like I was about to wake up from a dream any minute because I just couldn't believe the pretty girl I had met only briefly on a Friday night hasn't forgotten me and is now talking about post punk with me. Almost like it was too good to be true.
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Post by Elie De Beaufour on Oct 21, 2020 21:14:18 GMT -5
21696. What a gift it would be if Diorissima won to Jet today. 51 Sunday
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Post by Deleted on Nov 2, 2020 6:37:24 GMT -5
21697. I have so mixed feelings about last weekend. I was being a dick to someone who's a great guy and I didn't mean to but it just happened.
I was at his own party and towards the end of the night his gf started making moves towards me. I shouldn't have went along but if I'm being honest it just felt really exciting. I haven't had that kind of confidence before, I've always seen myself as the quiet, not particularly charismatic guy. But I was the centre of the attention that night, I just loved being social and really enjoyed the attention.
It was kinda eye opening really coz after years of all kinds of issues that have affected my self esteem and caused me to become antisocial, I just hadn't realised what kind of potential I have when it comes to self growth.
Also I had totally forgotten how much I enjoy parties simply because you never know what's going to happen in them. I may never be a particularly social person, not unless something catches my interest, but it's the unknown that attracts me. I'm a thrill seeker and love the rush from pushing things to where they necessarily shouldn't be.
The only problem I tend to have though is that my mood swings have been really strong all year and I'm genuinely acting like I'm bipolar. It just goes from suicidal ideation to feeling like I'm living the best years of my life really quickly and unexpectedly. There are loads of days when I think my life will end in a suicide eventually but then one positive experience takes it all away. I don't worry about it too much though coz I always know it won't last and I've never even felt like trying to attempt anything that I'd regret.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 2, 2020 6:42:37 GMT -5
21698. Also I went to a physiotherapist on Friday who cracked my shoulder area and it helped so much to my posture. But yesterday I noticed it had changed to worse very slightly and I tried to fix it myself. But all I gained was a straining injury to both of my shoulders and now they're fucked and possibly haunting me for the rest of my life.
This year for me could be summed as a health psychosis. I feel like my body is about to break all the time and then I start stressing it and somehow managed to make things even worse.
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Post by Elie De Beaufour on Nov 6, 2020 21:49:01 GMT -5
21699. Throw back to 2019 and Awayanddriveyourself Pete....not like that!
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Post by theyknowwhatimean on Nov 21, 2020 18:05:04 GMT -5
21,700.
My God, Vanessa's got a fabulous body. I bet she shags like a minx!
How do I tell them that because of the unfreezing process I have no inner monologue?
I...hope I didn't say that out loud just now.
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Post by Elie De Beaufour on Nov 22, 2020 12:24:13 GMT -5
21701. French betters, the idiots of the trot world. This was a test drive by Bazire. Keep crying you lost money guys.
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Post by mystoryisgory on Nov 25, 2020 0:34:59 GMT -5
21702. This thread needs a bump. Thanks.
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Post by mimmihopps on Nov 25, 2020 4:07:10 GMT -5
21702. This thread needs a bump. Thanks. 21703. Yeah, Why this thread? Why not.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 25, 2020 11:01:07 GMT -5
21704. It's great to actually notice in a real life situation that your confidence has improved and how it can change the way you handle different things. In the past I kinda hated it when I was genuinely into someone because it made me so shy and nervous around them. I didn't know how anyone could actually enjoy the pre-dating stage. But now I find it really exciting actually, I feel like the thrill you get from it is bigger than any doubts related to it. I have no idea how things are gonna turn out but somehow that's what makes the whole thing really interesting. Also I kinda like that nothing happened between us yet while still noticing that she liked me. This is actually where my MBTI knowledge helped a bit. She seems like an ENFP (I somehow find it really easy to recognise other xNxP types), and funnily enough that's what I've always seen as my "ideal" type even though I don't see any point in actively trying to find one. And well, somehow they tend to find me, I already have 2 ENFP friends who have been important to me in many ways, I can genuinely say my life would be totally different if I hadn't met either of them. But anyway, back to what I was trying to say... I just happened to find a thread about MBTI types and flirting styles. There were lots of ENFPs saying that they can be flirty when being just friendly but when they're actually trying to flirt they become very indirect and act unintentionally. Someone even said a "disaster" when describing their way of flirting. See, when I met her for the first time she was very open and seemed flirty. The whole thing happened so quickly and unexpectedly that I don't think either of us really expected anything, I almost walked out of it but she stopped me and wanted to give me a way to contact her just in case. Weeks went by while we were occasionally messaging, some failed plans to see and lots of uncertainty. Last weekend we finally saw each other when she arrived to our party with a couple of her friends (who were also there when we first met), and she actually seemed more reserved than I expected her to be. Both of her friends were very talkative, and I guess she was too in a way but I felt like she was holding something back. Afterwards I was wondering why, and I got some mixed signals from it coz at the same time she seemed more reserved than her friends but still whenever we looked at each other she'd have this really sweet smile and the eye contact always lasted longer than it "should've". But now I understand that it's likely that she was simply nervous because she actually likes me? And the good thing is that I was wondering when we should see again and how I'd ask her but then I noticed one of them had left their charger in my room so I got a reason to message her again
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Post by Elie De Beaufour on Nov 25, 2020 23:24:43 GMT -5
RIP Jacques
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Post by mimmihopps on Nov 26, 2020 11:59:00 GMT -5
21706.
When everyone dresses up, I get dress down.
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Post by theyknowwhatimean on Nov 26, 2020 15:08:50 GMT -5
21,707.
Extreme Measures with Trevor Eve. Friday at 9 on BBC One.
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Post by The Escapist on Nov 26, 2020 16:02:09 GMT -5
21,707.
Extreme Measures with Trevor Eve. Friday at 9 on BBC One.
22, 708: Me and mates did that non-stop in Year Eight English. Didn't even know who Trevor Eve was, we just liked taking any two-word phrase and doing it over and over again. Urgent Coursework, with Trevor Eve - Friday at nine, on BBC One.
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Post by theyknowwhatimean on Nov 26, 2020 18:47:14 GMT -5
21,707.
Extreme Measures with Trevor Eve. Friday at 9 on BBC One.
22, 708: Me and mates did that non-stop in Year Eight English. Didn't even know who Trevor Eve was, we just liked taking any two-word phrase and doing it over and over again. Urgent Coursework, with Trevor Eve - Friday at nine, on BBC One. 22,709.
But did you make sure to bring a sense of homecoming to 'BBC One'?
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Post by Elie De Beaufour on Nov 28, 2020 1:24:49 GMT -5
22710. Tips tomorrow Tokyo Cup: 6-2-1-5-14-3-7.
Backing Contrail to put Monsieur Winomatic (Lemaire) and Almond Eye to the sword.
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Post by mimmihopps on Nov 28, 2020 7:14:44 GMT -5
22711.
Another dog fight. Boring.
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Post by Elie De Beaufour on Nov 29, 2020 2:16:39 GMT -5
22710. Tips tomorrow Tokyo Cup: 6-2-1-5-14-3-7. Backing Contrail to put Monsieur Winomatic (Lemaire) and Almond Eye to the sword. 22712. Were you watching Dettori? THAT is how you win a last race.
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Post by mimmihopps on Nov 29, 2020 7:52:28 GMT -5
22713
Sigh
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Post by theyknowwhatimean on Nov 29, 2020 12:07:47 GMT -5
22,714.
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Post by Elie De Beaufour on Nov 30, 2020 6:23:07 GMT -5
22715. Sigh and Le Sigh at my parents ISP who are currently sitting on their collective butts.
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Post by mimmihopps on Nov 30, 2020 9:35:15 GMT -5
22716.
It's like a broken record.
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Post by Elie De Beaufour on Nov 30, 2020 10:42:40 GMT -5
22717. What was that? Great duel between Bazire and Nivard, my race of the year and winter.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 9, 2020 11:06:36 GMT -5
22717. One of the biggest mysteries I've encountered in life in the recent years is astrology. I really don't want to believe in it, I'm skeptical. But every fucking time it manages to call me out in ways that seems scarily accurate. Sometimes I'm reading about certain placements and I'm like "yeah, that doesn't make sense" but then afterwards realised I misread something and was looking at a totally different sign and when I finally find the right one it turns out be very accurate and I just keep wondering how the fuck does this keep happening. Lately I've been studying the compatibility placements and learnt that your descendant (opposite of your rising sign) is one of the single biggest factors in who you attract and are attracted to. And not too surprisingly my descendant happens to be in Cancer which I found out is my crush's moon sign. And the moon sign is probably the most important of the big 3 (Sun, Rising, Moon) because it's supposed to tell your whole emotional profile. Many people actually say that you'll resonate more with your moon sign than sun or rising because it's basically your inner self that might not be seen by others. The funny thing is that online, where it's easier to speak your mind, many people have guessed that I'm a Pisces, and it is actually my moon sign. No one has ever mentioned any other signs. Also your Venus placement is another factor in attraction and hers seems to be in Sagittarius, and after learning that I found a thread about your Venus signs and what qualities you're looking for and the comments with Sagittarius were saying stuff like this: I immediately thought this sounds like me in many ways. Well, I might not be outside too much but maybe I'm outside mentally at least. And actually last time we were hanging out she started talking about afterlife and other things related to that I noticed she was glad that I actually managed to discuss those things and in some ways even comfort her (I think she's going through some kind of existential crisis atm and because I'm kinda familiar with that already I could actually help her with those thoughts). Of course I still don't really believe in this stuff but when it keeps happening time after time it's easy to let myself to become more open to it.
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